My husband and I are currently going through a separation/divorce. Unlike the woman in this story, we are both saved (although our separation doesn’t show it). He struggles with alcohol and drug addictions. In his defense it’s not a daily thing. However, I’ve noticed that when someone is an addict, it affects all parts of their life. He’s been struggling with this for 20 plus years. In the short time I’ve known him, I thought he was getting better. Then I realized that people who use and/or drink for so many years, their attitudes are different from other people. My husband is a very paranoid person. But, in all of this, I wonder….How long do I hang on? We are told to forgive every time we are asked for forgiveness. But…How many chances to I give a man who goes back to the drink/drugs? It effects my life too. It effects my kids’ life. Is it really that simple for me to just live a “pure and reverent life” to help my husband? I guess all I’m really saying is that I feel like a failure/sinner for getting divorced. I can do what I can, but I can’t force my husband to get better. I feel guilty, you know?

I guess I still have some processing to do. This is a fairly new thing for us.

Thanks for letting me rant.